The Unknown That You Already Are
Lo Desconocido Que Ya Eres
A student revisits a powerful inner invitation to stop pretending not to know what they truly are, and the teacher warns against turning that unknowable reality into something the mind can grasp and pursue.
The Unknown That You Already Are
A student revisits a powerful inner invitation to stop pretending not to know what they truly are, and the teacher warns against turning that unknowable reality into something the mind can grasp and pursue.
I want to return to something I told you about. I had this experience where I asked this presence, this reality, what I could do, and I received an answer: "Stop pretending. Stop living as if you're just a separate entity in control." And you told me something like, "Beware of knowing what that is," or "Beware of knowing what living like that means." Something along those lines.
Yes. If I understand you correctly, the intuition you had is to stop pretending you don't know. Stop living as if you don't know what reality is, what the absolute is. Stop pretending you're not also that.
A strong invitation
That's a really strong invitation and a very strong confirmation that it's the next step, because that presence is you. The dialogue is between you and another part of you. And so that seeing is calling out a kind of hypocrisy: pretending something that you already know not to be true.
Beware of defining the unknown
What I would say now, based on what you're describing, is to beware of defining that which is the unknown. Do not turn it into something knowable or known. You can say, "I am that," but also, "I don't know what that is. I leave it open." It's mysterious, and you never know for certain. If you know what that is, it's not that. Because you will likely create an image of what it is, and by definition, it is mystery. It's unknowable. It's infinite. It's real. It's palpable. It's known. But to the mind, it will always be unknowable.
It's always present. It's always what you are. It's right now.
Oscillation between two knowns
The oscillation you're describing is not between the unknowable and the knowable. It's an oscillation between two knowns: "I have control" and "I don't have control." That's still dualistic.
I understand what you mean by "between two knowns," but I'm not sure where to go from there.
There is an identity that could live in the reality of "I have no control." There is an identity that could live in the reality of "I have control." So you oscillate. The faster and deeper you oscillate, the more you come close to a fundamental duality where identity is still safe, still holding on to beliefs.
I think I'm a bit lost.
Beyond the world of form
Good. That confusion might actually be a really important point. That other which you are does not inhabit the world of form. It embraces control and no control. And that's where the freedom is.
Yes, it feels like that when I have certain dreams. It doesn't matter what happens, whether there's control in it or not. It's like another dimension.
And it's still present when you experience the opposite of what you're describing. It's still present when you don't feel freedom, when you don't feel whatever quality you associate with it.
Hmm.
Don't make it into something known
And that's why it's important not to make it known. Not to say, "Oh, that is when I feel X, Y, Z." That's just the mind making it into something known so that you can pursue it and look for it somewhere other than where it already is, right now.