A student explores the fear of pain and the realization that intimacy requires a kind of disappearance.
A student explores the fear of pain and the realization that intimacy requires a kind of disappearance.
It is all a process of faith, in a sense.
I love that. But the terror is of pain.
Yes. The terror of pain is ultimately the pain we imagine of disappearance, of death. But then there will be real experiences of pain, where we experience something directly as pain. And then the trust, again, is that nothing else is needed but this: to be with that.
The disappearance in intimacy
I guess there is that level of disappearance in intimacy.
Yes. In intimacy, you are not there.
I guess that is my terror, in a way. I know that is how it is. Something turned in my understanding of that disappearing, in intimacy.
Yes, which is not to be confused with disappearing in the bad psychological way, where you lose yourself. That is something quite different.
Yes. That shift just happened somewhere. Thank you.
Thank you.