Nothing Is Missing
Nada Falta
A gentle exploration of dissatisfaction, the sensations beneath it, and what remains when you look closely at the sense of me at its center.
Nothing Is Missing
Look at your current experience.
Is there any dissatisfaction?
A sense of something missing.
Something that needs to be different.
If there isn't anything missing,
don't fabricate a discomfort.
Just sink into that.
If nothing is missing,
then there's a constant free fall.
Because we can only hold on to something that's missing.
So if nothing is missing, just enjoy that free fall.
When dissatisfaction is present
If you do feel dissatisfaction,
something missing,
even a subtle sense of suffering or dissatisfaction,
don't ignore it.
Don't pretend it's not there.
Feel into it.
Make a vast room and welcome it.
Be very curious about every subtle aspect of that experience.
What are the sensations?
What texture does it have?
Where are the sensations?
What kind of emotions come with it?
What texture and sensations do these emotions have?
And where in space do they happen?
Touch everything intimately.
What thoughts come with it?
Not just the inner words, the dialogue,
but what's the narrative?
What picture or painting of the past is it creating,
implying,
requiring?
What image of the future?
Staying with the body
Stay very intimately connected with the sensations,
the textures in the space of the body.
As you explore this tone,
don't lose touch with your breath.
Make a vast room for your experience and welcome it.
If that is hard,
just notice the vast infinite space that already is here.
Noticing your breath,
your sensations,
textures in the body.
Any form of dissatisfaction will anchor in the body.
Not trying to change anything
or make anything stay.
Just intimacy with what is happening.
It could be anything:
restlessness,
sadness,
boredom,
frustration,
calm.
Breath,
body,
sensations,
textures,
emotions,
which are sensations and textures based on a narrative of past and future.
The sense of me
And at the core of it, a sense of me here.
Not wanting this, or wanting that.
Me here, in this place, in this time.
The hardest, most subtle thing to see
is the nature of this sense of me here.
At the center of the story,
the core of the dissatisfaction,
that which is dissatisfied,
that which feels,
experiences.
Which feels so real, that me.
That is the most important thing.
Keep looking closely,
in touch with breath, body, sensations.
Me here.
One who thinks, likes, wants.
Notice that it's hard to pin down.
It's like the reflection of something in shaky water.
You look for it; it was there a second ago.
What is its nature?
You know it, you interact with this sense of me all the time.
What is it? Where is it?
What if its nature is just thoughts,
a constant changing stream of thoughts and sensations?
That sense of me is thoughts and sensations.
What is looking?
What is looking,
noticing the sense of me?
That sense of me is very palpable.
So what is looking at that?
There is something here.
You drop the sense of me: what remains?
Even if for half a second, just drop it.
Other sensations,
emotions,
thoughts,
narratives,
dissatisfaction or not.
That sense of me here choosing,
wanting,
not wanting.
Just drop all that for a second.
If it were to go away entirely for a second,
what remains?