The Sensation Beneath the Story
La sensación debajo de la historia
A reflection on how the feeling that something is wrong is itself a sensation to be met directly, rather than a problem to be solved through narrative.
The Sensation Beneath the Story
A reflection on how the feeling that something is wrong is itself a sensation to be met directly, rather than a problem to be solved through narrative.
When you take the position of victim, you close a perfect loop in which you will always remain in identification. But I understand that by saying this, it can be interpreted as a criticism, either from me to you or within yourself: "I'm not taking responsibility, I'm being a victim, I'm choosing this, and I could choose otherwise." Yet if any of that is believed, it is the same thing. It can be taken and turned into a narrative of suffering, and there is nothing I can do about that.
The core feeling
At the essence, there is this feeling that something is not okay with me, that something is not okay with reality, that something is not okay with this moment right now. The way we usually go about dealing with that is to say, "Something is not okay with me or my situation. Where is the problem? I'll try to fix it so that tomorrow things are better."
What I am pointing to is that this sense of something not being okay is itself a sensation. Go into the sensation and put the stories aside. It is not going to be resolved by doing anything. It is appearing because you believe you are something you are not. It is appearing because we believe we are something, and we are trying to keep this sense of "me" stable. But the sense of me is based on sensations that are in constant flux and flow. And if those sensations are not in the form I am comfortable with, I feel threatened.
Seeing through what you thought you were
Waking up is simply this: a separating in which I see through that which I thought I was. And that only happens now. It is not something I can see tomorrow.
There is something present, and this I offer simply from trust: there is something present right now that is fully free and fully okay. In spite of everything that is happening, in spite of our thoughts, our emotions, the situation in our lives, none of that needs to change in order for us to recognize this deep wellbeing. It is not hidden. Or you could say it is hidden in plain sight.