The Universe Is Doing
El Universo Está Haciendo
An invitation to notice that choosing and doing have no fixed center, and to trust the unfolding of your life like a tree bearing fruit.
The Universe Is Doing
And that level of action
is always a process of refinement.
It's a process of rebalancing and discovering and deepening.
And the more it's liberated action,
it's joyful,
it's loving,
even if scary,
because often it's towards an energy that, for the limited sense of self, there's a sense of risk, uncertainty.
Fear becoming aliveness
But that fear, which at first becomes paralyzing and becomes the way not to go,
later it becomes an energy and an aliveness, a passion.
When there isn't anymore a sense of a located self,
there is no doer.
The universe is doing,
but there's no doer.
Doer means a limited entity that's choosing.
There is choosing, there is choice,
but where is it coming from?
Where is it happening?
And you could think, well, it's consciousness.
But the choice, if you look at a choice closely,
where it happens, when it happens,
you cannot find a located entity choosing.
You can have a mental construct about it, that "I chose."
Looking closely at choosing
But if you really look at the experience,
you just hold a finger out and then play with moving it and not moving it.
Contemplate the experience of moving the finger.
When am I going to move it?
You could sit for thirty minutes and explore this.
Where does the choice come from?
Where does the movement come from?
And if you look closely and truly, if you're honest,
you won't find that self that is choosing, that is doing it.
It's happening.
There is a sense that I am doing this.
But if you get really close to it, it's universal.
It's this being lived.
Seeing through the last illusion
I still had this sense of a perceiver that was also choosing,
and this perceiver was consciousness, who was also choosing.
And at one point I was making coffee,
and I just saw so clearly that this sense of awareness that I am
has no located center, no agent that is choosing.
It needed an agent that is choosing for me to create that sense of identity.
And in that moment I started laughing.
I was making coffee, I was laughing,
because I just saw through that illusion
that was still hiding in this sense of consciousness that is the chooser.
It was still this sense of a separate entity choosing.
I'd rather, instead of saying "there's no one here" and "there's no one there,"
say that what we are is so vast.
It includes everything, and it includes every choice,
but we're not localized, we're not separate.
And the sense is that that which felt like a separate will
is seen to be God's will all along,
and never was not.
Trust
There is also an important development of a kind of trust.
Whatever you need, you don't need to be looking and efforting and trying to work on yourself waking up.
Whatever you need will come to you.
And I had this sense after that of imagining the development of a human being,
all those years of developing the ego and learning in school,
and then, at least in my case, all those years of working on yourself.
And it seemed endless,
but at the same time, the vision was so beautiful.
It's as if the universe wants me to, and is helping me to, wake up.
And it doesn't matter if I die and I don't get to whatever needs to happen.
It's still beautiful.
There's something with trust.
One of the most direct ways I try to point to that is: nothing is needed.
And just trust.
Because a part of the experience could be that something is missing.
And you could say the source of that experience is distrust.
The tree bears fruit in its own time
In the same way that we are born and we grow and develop, our body grows naturally,
so does our waking up progress naturally.
And to trust that when the tree must bear fruit,
it will, in the right time.
That sense of something is missing is almost like imagining the tree before bearing fruit,
worried that it won't,
or that it will take too long,
or why not now.
Trust the vertigo.
Free fall like an astronaut.
Trust that it will happen when it has to happen.