The Seed of Dissatisfaction
La Semilla de la Insatisfacción
This meditation invites you to notice the subtle, constant urge to resist or change your experience and to recognize the peace already present in awareness.
The Seed of Dissatisfaction
Eyes open or closed
For meditation, you can leave your eyes open or close them as you wish.
I say it almost every day, every meditation,
because people who have meditated for a long time,
for people who do that, there can be a little bit of an attachment to a certain state that is produced when your eyes are closed.
To explore meditating with eyes open can be quite valuable, especially for somebody who has meditated for a significant amount of time.
Something is missing
It is something that is very simple, and it is the most important.
We have a sense that something is missing,
something is not right.
You can experience it as a discomfort,
an anxiety,
something that we need,
often a very subtle form of dissatisfaction.
See if you can recognize that in your current experience.
It'll be like a chameleon changing form, shape, sensations.
Feeling into what is needed
One way to investigate this is to feel into your experience right now.
Ask the question: what do I need in order to be fully satisfied right now?
Don't go into memories of past needs, past experiences.
What is needed right now?
Just notice what happens.
What are the sensations?
What are the thoughts?
The pushing and pulling
Notice a part of the experience where there might be a pushing, pulling, trying to change something of what you're experiencing.
It can be incredibly subtle,
trying to change a sensation in the body that's uncomfortable,
trying to change the kind of thoughts that are happening.
That is the seed of dissatisfaction,
the seed of suffering.
There is an experience of sounds, sensations, visual perception, thoughts, emotions,
all of it happening in a constant flow,
constant change,
infinite motion,
aliveness,
and in that motion, something trying to change it.
The door to freedom
It is this deepest, most subtle part of our experience that is the door to freedom.
We have chosen to believe in the value of resisting.
A very subtle form of resistance.
If you see it, you will notice it to be constant, very intimate.
It is the seed of dissatisfaction,
and it is the seed, the sense of self.
The moment you see it, it'll take a different form and hide again,
in the form of noble, honorable intentions.
Pushing to calm the mind,
pushing to relax the body.
What knows is at peace
Even when the mind is busy and the body is tense, our essence is at rest.
If there is discomfort in the body, what knows the discomfort is at peace.
When the mind is busy and anxious, that which knows the busy anxious mind is at rest, is peace and rest.
It's not a treasure that can be earned,
cannot be achieved,
it cannot be attained.
It is already given.
If there is awareness, there is peace.