The Clothes You Were Already Wearing
La ropa que ya llevabas puesta
A student reflects on the experience of listening to the teacher's guided meditations and dialogues, discovering that what is being pointed to was always already present, and finding a deepening sense of gratitude and openness.
The Clothes You Were Already Wearing
A student reflects on the experience of listening to the teacher's guided meditations and dialogues, discovering that what is being pointed to was always already present, and finding a deepening sense of gratitude and openness.
It's a combination of what you were saying today in this meditation and what I heard listening to last week's session, which I unfortunately missed live. It's like a smoothing of the path: just this, and this, and this. That's it. Just this. There's everything, but there's nothing. It's just this.
That's what it felt like listening to you. I could almost see you mowing down all the bramble and smoothing the path. I felt again today what I felt listening to one of the dialogues from last week, the one about meditation focusing on awareness versus thoughts. The question was: do you even need to do that? Everywhere you go, it's all right there. The person asking those questions did a much better job than I could have, and yet they were my questions. I had this feeling that in these dialogues, you're sewing clothes that fit each one of us so beautifully. And then I had the further feeling: I've always been wearing these clothes. You're just bringing to our attention the clothes we're already wearing.
Maybe that's been a theme in my life. "How do I make this happen?" And then something happens, and I didn't do anything, and I received something more perfect than I could have imagined. That theme just keeps repeating itself. That's just the way it shows up for me.
This theme of savoring: it's not about wanting this or not wanting this, because the wanting is already there. I never thought of savoring in this way before. It's a whole different space, a whole different quality. Maybe I'm just more open. I'm looking for words and not finding them exactly. There's a lot of gratitude and amazement, for whatever it's worth.