The Fear Beneath the Narrative
El Miedo Bajo la Narrativa
A question about tracing compelling thought patterns back to their root sensation, and discovering that what lies beneath most narratives is a fundamental fear of death or survival.
The Fear Beneath the Narrative
A question about tracing compelling thought patterns back to their root sensation, and discovering that what lies beneath most narratives is a fundamental fear of death or survival.
Certain things are becoming much lighter, seen through, and there's a sense that this is happening on its own. But there are some patterned narratives that can still catch me, where, as you say, thought becomes more than thought. It feels very important, very compelling. There are patterns around that which seem habitual, part of the conditioning of this body-mind.
To narrow in on the question: when I trace a narrative back, leaving the story to the side and returning to sensation, usually there is fear. Basically it is fear of not being loved, or fear of survival, and I think those are linked together. Is that restlessness a fear of death? Would you say that?
Very much.
So if we are able to untangle from the narrative and trace it back, it is just sensation, or different expressions of sensation: resistance, restlessness, unease. Underneath it all, there is something like a sense that I am going to die.
It seems like the process, and it does happen somewhat on its own, is a kind of rinse and repeat. There is a growing ability to notice that a narrative is happening, and then to ask: what is the sensation?