The Love You Are Looking For
El Amor Que Estás Buscando
*Finding beauty now*
The Love You Are Looking For
Just notice. Go back, take that phrase as a koan:
everything's coming from you.
The love you're looking for is coming from you.
It's not out there to find.
Finding beauty now
One way to explore that is, what is it right now that I find beautiful?
And it could be just like a little reflection, anything.
And then if you find yourself thinking,
well, nothing's beautiful right now, everything sucks,
that kind of thing, which used to be a lot of my habit,
see that as part of the illusion and investigate that.
Be curious. Really, is that so?
And you might come against some really strong resistance.
You're finding something beautiful right now, at any moment.
And that resistance is the attachment to the illusion.
You don't want to let go because if you find beauty, it's going to crack the illusion.
The illusion can only be sustained,
the whirlpool can only be sustained,
if there's a no to what's happening in some form,
the denial of the love and the beauty that is here now.
What if
What if you could, at any moment, every single instant of life,
find something absolutely, gloriously beautiful, loving, any moment?
What if?
What does that do to life?
How does that change everything?
No matter what's happening,
no matter how tragic things are circumstantially, how painful.
And I don't propose this as a truth.
I just propose it as a what if. Consider the possibility.
It's my experience.
And to me it feels universal.
I know it was so when I didn't see it so.
It's not something that was not so and then became so.
It was always so.
And I can understand how I was intentionally not seeing that.
Two paths
It's like there are two paths, two forms.
One is always looking, starting from the perspective that something's missing and I need to get it and find it.
And the other is always starting from: there is nothing missing. What is here now is beautiful.
It's free.
It's loving.
Now, as an experimentation, what if I adopt that perspective?
What can happen is it can be seen that
the first one is based on illusion and the second one is based on reality.
But that has to be discovered through the exploration. It cannot be belief-based.
But it can't be discovered,
well, it can,
but often, because of all of the habits of the mind,
there needs to be a process of the exploration becoming the way for a little while
until all of the muddiness settles.
What I'm trying to say is that it might take time exploring what I'm suggesting.
Turning toward what is here
Whenever there's a contraction and something feels overwhelming
and it's not okay and something's missing and I'm striving,
look for that which is right now really beautiful and loving, coming from you.