What You Are Looking For Is Already Here
October 11, 2023

What You Are Looking For Is Already Here

Lo que estás buscando ya está aquí

This session opens with a meditation on beingness as the ever-present, unlocatable ground of all experience, then moves into dialogues exploring the stubborn nature of self-identification and how deeper universal desire can dissolve it. Students share experiences of hitting walls in seeking, losing hope as an escape mechanism, and facing collective and personal trauma — particularly around world suffering and inherited Jewish trauma — discovering that surrender into feeling, rather than effortful doing, opens the heart to unexpected peace.

beingness self-inquiry identification no self collective trauma surrender hopelessness fear of annihilation suffering of the world universal desire contraction powerlessness
What You Are Looking For
meditation
What You Are Looking For
A gentle exploration of the awareness already present in this moment, inviting you to notice that what you are looking for is right here.
Something Rather Than Nothing
dialogue
Something Rather Than Nothing
A question about the persistent sense of identification with a limited self, and how self-inquiry and deeper desire work together to dissolve it.
The Wall at the End of Seeking
dialogue
The Wall at the End of Seeking
A student describes reaching a point where the drive to seek, both in love and in spiritual inquiry, has collapsed into a kind of hopelessness, and the teacher reframes this loss of hope as the falling away of an escape mechanism.
Waiting Without Hope
dialogue
Waiting Without Hope
A student reflects on the discomfort of waiting, having long told themselves that waiting is a form of ignorance, and discovers that waiting may be exactly what is needed.
The Door You Open Together
dialogue
The Door You Open Together
A student asks how to practice when overwhelmed by the suffering of the world, feeling paralyzed and powerless in the face of so much pain.
Touching What Feels Like Annihilation
dialogue
Touching What Feels Like Annihilation
A student shares the overwhelming weight of collective and personal trauma, the fear of feeling what seems unbearable, and the unexpected peace that can arise from meeting that pain directly.
The Knot in the Throat
dialogue
The Knot in the Throat
A student, overcome with emotion, expresses bewilderment at human conflict and the generational trauma that perpetuates it.