This meditation explores how following what you truly desire — even after being hurt — reveals a deeper part of you that remains whole and unharmed.
That which we feel is the worst thing that can happen,
and at the same time, a really strong calling or desire to go in a certain direction.
But we have to check that it's not an unconscious desire of self-destruction, for example.
If you are prone to taking hard drugs, you might feel like you're called to that, like it's your deepest longing,
but that's not what I'm talking about.
Where the real longing points
I'm talking about something where there's a huge disparity
between what it actually is
and the amount of threat that it feels like.
Whatever that is for you, for an individual,
moving through it moment by moment,
because it moves,
it changes.
The more you do that,
the more you recognize what is your heart.
What's your power, your heart.
Following the desire through the fire
The more you are truly listening to that,
even after it burned.
For example,
you're afraid of relationship.
You get into a relationship.
You finally develop the courage to be with a person you truly want to be with,
then that doesn't go well.
And you go through a level of pain and grief that was unimaginable.
Now if later you are called, or feel a desire to enter another relationship, and you don't,
then something got blocked.
But the more you're able to keep moving with that desire,
in spite of being burned, in spite of things not going well,
you start to recognize that
at a deeper level something is completely unharmed.
And it's what I'm calling the heart,
because it loves life.
The shared heart
And that's where I give myself permission to say it's shared.
It's the same heart in all of us.
It's life itself,
but it's you as well.
We can talk a lot about self-inquiry: what am I, who am I.
And then I'm talking about what we want, what we truly want. It's the same thing.
It's just looking at one thing from different perspectives.
What we are is life.
It's also the source where life emerges.
It's life, it's death, it's the creation, the creator.
But none of these are two.
There isn't a creation and a creator.
There isn't life and death.
What we assume we are
We can just use the word life in this context.
We have a sense that we're somehow separate from that,
that we are something that can be alive and not alive.
We have a sense that we are this body and this mind and limited to that,
and it's an assumption.
What we are is a lot deeper than that,
and it can be known.
That's the wonder of it.
It's not known intellectually.
It's not known as a belief system,
or through being told. That knowing doesn't go very deep.
It can be known as in recognized,
seen,
fully, clearly.
And in a sense, it starts by knowing what we're not,
to see that we're not what we thought we were.