The Discomfort of Dismantling
La incomodidad de desmantelar
A student describes the destabilizing experience of becoming aware of lifelong subconscious thought patterns, and the teacher affirms that this process, while genuinely difficult, does not diminish its value.
The Discomfort of Dismantling
A student describes the destabilizing experience of becoming aware of lifelong subconscious thought patterns, and the teacher affirms that this process, while genuinely difficult, does not diminish its value.
This is a very destabilizing process. Speaking for myself, dismantling these subconscious thought patterns and beliefs that I realize my whole life I've been dependent upon to feel secure, to cope with any circumstance that might be presented. To start actually being aware, paying attention, contemplating them, dismantling them. In one sense, it's freeing. But in the other sense, it's just difficult. It seems to be moving one closer to reality, and that's not comfortable.
No, it's not comfortable at all. I think often in these circles it's presented like this wonderful experience, but this isn't easy.
The benefit remains
That said, the difficulty does not diminish the benefit of it.
One of the things I'm really struggling with is the separate self judging the separate self. I'm breaking down some of these thought patterns around how I might cope with a given situation where I might feel threatened, which isn't really true, but my mind makes it seem more threatening than it is. Then all these subconscious thought patterns and imagery come into play to make me feel more secure and safe.