The Urge to Find What's Missing
El impulso de encontrar lo que falta
A student struggles with the inability to locate identification when not actively triggered, and the teacher points toward the urge itself as the real symptom to investigate.
The Urge to Find What's Missing
A student struggles with the inability to locate identification when not actively triggered, and the teacher points toward the urge itself as the real symptom to investigate.
Identification is still there, and it's really hard to see it. Should I just be looking when I'm triggered?
Yes, when you're either triggered or you feel a sense of something being off, something missing, something not okay. Otherwise, don't bother.
Right. I can't find it otherwise.
When you're triggered, that's especially a moment to look.
Or after.
Yes, but not too long after. When it's alive, when it's fresh. Or when there's a sense of something missing.
Looking back without charge
But even then, if I look back to when I was last triggered, it's this whole thing. Right now I don't feel like I am that.
I don't think there's much usefulness in looking back when something isn't very present. It might become just an intellectual exercise, a form of seeking.
That's the only thing I see. It's like I'm someone sitting here trying to find where I'm identified. I'm basically just seeking.
Yes. But then see what's creating the urge to find something. That's the sense of something missing. The restlessness. When you recognize that nothing's missing, you don't have to reconfirm it. You can forget about it.
The urge itself is the symptom
I don't know that I recognize there's nothing missing so much as I'm looking for where I'm identified so I can ask you questions about it. I like to know.
Look at the urge for that. This can be felt as a sensation. That's the urge. That's the symptom of the more subtle identification. Notice the difference between the urge itself and the strategy, which is, "I know there's this process where I look for identification." Going into that strategy is going into mind. Getting in touch with the urge is touching the symptom directly.
By touching that, you can see what's really there, what that position actually is. It will probably be more of a sense of a subjectivity, a tightness, a restlessness. Does that resonate?
I don't know if it's happening right now. It's getting a bit late. It's strange; I'm starting to have allergies.
The allergy, yes. Did that just come up?
Yes.
Interesting.
You noticed that?
Yes. Anything else?
I have one along those lines, if there is any. It's not a question but a sharing of what was present, hoping for feedback or insight.