Beliefs About Self
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This meditation invites you to rest in the simple openness of not knowing what you are, letting go of fixed beliefs about self.
Beliefs About Self
What meditation is about
I wonder if you've ever heard that meditation is about beliefs.
Contemplate that.
It's not about states,
it's not about feeling good, or having experiences or shifts,
nor the mind doing a certain thing,
the breath doing a certain thing.
It's really about beliefs,
and not beliefs related to the world.
For example, whether the sun orbits around the earth or vice versa,
or if the earth is flat or elliptical.
It's not about that either.
It's about beliefs related to what we are.
Beliefs about self.
Not knowing what we are
And so you could say meditation is any moment when we don't know what we are.
When we believe we know what we are, we leave meditation.
So it's not about time, it's not even about the mind, it's not about the body,
it's not about sensations,
it's not about understanding things.
It's not about states or shifts,
it's not about the now versus the past or future,
it's not about the breath or the thoughts coming and going.
Just one simple thing.
Beliefs about self.
It's not about having the right beliefs or the wrong beliefs.
Simply not knowing what we are.
Not knowing is the openness.
Not knowing is meditation.
Knowing creates limitation, struggle,
a false sense of safety.
Knowing what I am triggers a universe of specific things
that need to happen in order to be okay,
which is always in the future,
conditioning freedom for another time.
Language might say there has been self-realization,
as if the knowing of self has happened.
That's just language.
Truly, the dropping of a false belief,
seeing through the illusion.
Meditation is here
In any moment where you don't know what you are,
it doesn't matter where you are,
there is meditation.
In meditation there is peace,
freedom,
transparency,
and clarity of experience.
That restlessness, that friction
that you might feel more often than not,
the stress,
the suffering,
the dissatisfaction,
which is so uncomfortable to look at, so uncomfortable to deal with,
so hard just for you to figure out.
It's rooted in just a very, very simple veil
of false knowledge
and the attachment to a definition of what I am.
I Am
We could play the words of Jesus as he defined the I Am.
The Alpha and the Omega,
the beginning and the end,
everything in between.
I Am is not limited.
It's not body,
it's not sensations,
it's not thoughts,
it's not memories,
it's not past.
It's all of that.
Before all of this was, I Am.
The Alpha, the Omega, everything in between.
Resting in not knowing
Let the night seduce you.
It is deep and it is calling.
Let the mother be your home,
groundless ground,
infinite openness.
The silence and the sounds,
the emptiness and the forms,
the vastness, the preciousness.
The familiar discomfort,
attraction,
restlessness, anxiety,
that which you habitually push away,
try to fix.
Just allow it to be,
and invite this nothingness,
this vast, deep, spacious openness.
She's always present,
this gracious vast openness.
This discomfort will dissolve.
This not knowing is mystery.
It is all freedom, compassion.
It's not about fixing life.